Sunday, October 21, 2007

Depression

Well, it has been about a month since I have posted anything. The reason is that I have been quite tired, and also pretty depressed. I didn't really want to post negative things on my blog, but I feel like I need to put it down here. I remember feeling the exact same way when I was pregnant with Joseph, so I suppose it is really just hormonal (though knowing that doesn't help much, especially at the darkest times.) I think I will mention it to the midwife at my next appointment, although I can't imagine she can really do anything about it.

Today we went and looked at a house that I happened upon last week. I spotted it last week when coming home from the library with Joseph. The woman who owns the house saw me and invited us in to look, so we did that. It is quite a nice house, at a fairly low price, and in a really nice neighbourhood. I really liked it, though I feel torn about buying anything right now. Jim and I decided to go look at it, and he really likes it too. The only thing that I really don't like about it is that it doesn't have a fireplace, and I have my heart set on that. In the end, I think we won't think any further about buying a house at the moment. It really doesn't seem like a time to change things in a major way with the baby coming. I have been so emotional about things lately, that it wouldn't be a good time to make such a huge decision.

Here is a funny story about Joseph. When we went to see the house the first time, he really was excited about the owner's cats (she has four big ones.) The whole time we were there he was exclaiming about them and squealing with delight when they would come toward him. As we were leaving and we and the owner were saying goodbye, he said 'Maybe when you go to your new house, you can leave one of the cats.'

5 comments:

Theresa said...

Hi Michelle, I hope you're feeling better. Definitely tell the midwife or visit a doctor, I'm sure there's something they can do. The house sounds good, but it's a big decision. On the other hand, no house will ever be perfect unless you build it yourself. I guess you have to look at the pros and cons of it, and make a choice. I knew it, I just knew Joseph was a cat person at heart. ;)

Heidi said...

Hi Michelle,I also hope you´re feeling better soon.But be sure to tell the midwife about it because sometimes it helps to talk with someone about it.As you know I´m in Spain now. Today we looked at the cutest baby clothes, but since we do not know what it is going to be we didn´t buy anything yet. Boy that little Joseph sure is a smart boy and just like all of us he likes cats. I´ll call you ok. Love, Mem

Art by Andrew Daniel said...

Hi Michelle I remember you too! Congrats on the little boy and second one on the way! It sure takes a terrific amount of energy and patience doesn't it? My friend Cija Bellis (HSU Art - remember her?) had a second and she felt sad quite often.... It is a big self sacrifice to raise a child. Mine just went into Kindergarten. Cija just started grad school to be a social worker and her spirits were lifted tremendously by having some adult style itellectual stuff goin' round her head. Babies can really control what you think about all day! I often felt brain dead staying home with Abby. The home ownership is a tremendous amount of work! But, most of it can wait if it needs to....
Anyway, thanks for contacting me! It was really nice to see you doing well in neat-o Nebraska! Make sure to surround yourself with adult stimulous when possible. :)
Cheers,
Andrew

Theresa said...

Hi Michelle, I'm tagging you to do a meme. Come and play, maybe it'll make you feel better. Carmen says "hi" to and she wants you to play too.

Malvasia45 said...

I was a friend of Cija's during her turbulent years, and I have found her art online, but I have had little luck in contacting her. I would love for you to send her a hello from Diana Hafar. I live in SF with my husband, and I would love to visit her sometime. Thanks for being here. Love, peace, and whatever else you need today.